Pauline opened the bedroom door as she heard Jesse coughing loudly. He was sitting on the bed with a lots tissues around him. "Are you feelling any better?" she asked him from a distance. "Kinda." he replied and looked back on his laptop. Because of him being sick since the day the batch arrived he had to take it slow and not work so much but that was hard. "I made you a chicken soup. You want some?" she asked him. "I can't really eat right now." "I know but you need food for the antibiotics to work." Pauline replied and sat on the side of the bed. "Maybe later. I'm in the middle of something here." Jesse said without lookin at her. "Okay, i'll be downstairs with the boys if you need me." she said stooding up and left.
She closed the door and went downstairs like she told him. She went straight to the living room where PJ and Kevin were playing with each other and their toys. Smiling she sat on the floor right beside them. They didn't pay her so much attetion and they kept playing with their toys. PJ crawled to the coffee table because something caught his eyes. He placed his little hands on the top of it and raised his body. He took in his hands the remote and looked back at his mother confident like an NBA star on the free throw like. Smiling he took the very first step in his life. "Oh my God! Come on PJ you got it!" Pauline yelled in exitment as PJ was getting closer to her and finally made it all by himself. Pauline got him in her arms and hold him close. His hazel eyes met hers as he handed her the remote and smiled. "Didn't need that buddy but thank you!" Pauline said and smiled back as PJ sat down again and crawl back to his twin brother.
All excited of PJ taking his first steps she wanted to share the news with someone and the first person who crossed her mind was of course Jesse. Dispait the fact that she didn't want to talk to him after the fights they've been having he had the right to know. She grabbed her phone and texted him. PJ was playing with a Fisher Price piano that Jon got him while Kevin was playing with some colourfull blocks. Jesse was watching them from the top of the stairs and was smiling proudly. He walked down the stairs and closer to the rest of his family. "Did he really walk?" he asked and three heads turned around to face him. "Yeah! On his own really!" Pauline answered back feeling enthusiastic. "Oh man and i missed it." Jesse replied and walked a little closer but then he coughed and covered his mouth.
"Don't worry he'll do it again." "Yeah, sure. So, that soup you made is it ready?" Jesse asked. "Yes, don't forget your antibiotics in a few hours." Pauline said and looked back to PJ and Kevin. "Okay." he replied and left the room and went to the kichen. While he was purring the soup on his plate he looked over at the window. It was a perfect sunny Sunday noon. Some kids were playing outside football and he was stuck in the house. He sat on the chair in the table and started eatting the chichen soup that Pauline made for him thinking how on Earth they end up in this place.
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Pauline was sitting on her desk drinking an iced caramel macchiato she got from Starbucks about 2 hours ago. She was going throught some e-mails she missed the weekend when her phone rung. She checked and it was Rachel, their secretary, who was calling her from the internal phone. "Yes, Rachel." "Mrs Timson there's someone here to see you and he doesn't have an appointment." "What's his name, Rachel?" Pauline asked a little annoyed by her question. "Richard Sambora." Rachel replied after a long pause. Pauline laughed hard as she said "Tell him to come in!". Rachel hung up and seconds later PAuline heard a knock on her door. "Mr Sambora, Mrs Timson." Rachel said as she opened the door and let Richie walked in. Pauline got up from her chair and said "Thank you, Rachel." she nodded her head and left.
"Sorry about that!" Pauline said and gave him a quick hug. "Nah, don't worry! It was nice to feel like a normal person." Richie said as they broke the hug. "What brings you in here?" Pauline answered and took her place back on the desk as Richie sat on the other side. "I had an interview in a radio station and i thought i'd come to say hello." Richie replied and looked around. "You did a good thing!Do you need anything? Coffee, water?" "Coffee if it's okay." Richie replied and Pauline stood up and walked to a little table on her left where a Nespresso coffee machine was waiting. "I only have espresso if that's okay." "Anything you have darlin'!" Richie said and smiled.
"What is this ashtrey doing here? You didn't start smocking again, didn't you?" he added a few seconds later when he saw the glass ashtrey on her desk. "Of course not! That's Harry's." Pauline replied as she placed the mug filled with espresso in front of him. "Thank you! Good for you!" "You can light up one, but just one!" Pauline replied as she sat back again on the chair. "I can hold on a few minutes, i'm not that desperate.... yet." he joked and drunk a sip of his coffee. "So, how things are going in your life?" "Did Jon send you?" Pauline replied as she sensed something was up and crossed her arms. "No, why will he send me? Did something happend?" Richie asked back and Pauline looked back at him with a raised eyebrow. "Fuck!" he started and looked at her. "Okay, he send me to check up on you." "Check up on me? I'm not 16 anymore,you know." she answered feeling a little pressured in this moment. "We know that, but we notised some tension the other night in Ava's between you and Jesse. Look,all we want is for you both to be happy, so are you happy? If you are that's good enough for me."
Pauline was studying his face. She knew he was not stupid and cared about them very much. She was wondering if they made it that obvious that something was something was off between them. "Honestly, i don't know what we are anymore..." she finally replied as she run her fingers throught her hair. "I mean we keep shouting at each other and calling names and staff. We're both so busy that we don't do anything together like a family and as a couple anymore." she added and looked back at Richie. "I hear you. I don't know what's is wrong here and you don't have to tell me. Can i give a piece of advise?" he asked her and searched the pocket of his coat for his pack of cigarettes. He took the pack out and lighted one and looked back at her.
"We'll all have been there. Working brings up shades of yourself you didn't know you had. I didn't make the best choises back then and now i understand how i let that change me. Being alone on the other side of the world all i wanted was to go home and when i was back home there was no home, you know." Richie said and blew off some smoke. "The only thing Heather and i agreed was what we wanted from each other and that helped us get throught some years but you are not Heather. I know you got staff in your mind and he has his own staff to worry about but you can not let this destroy what you're building here. You have two healthy and beautiful boys and you should both focus on what really matters because in the end you will always have them." "I tried to have a talk with him but didn't go as i planned." Pauline replied fast.
"Yeah, because you're both too fucking stuborn to admit that you're wrong! If you open up a little you'll see what this world it's all about. I'm an old man and took me years and countless mistakes to undersatnd that." Richie said and sat back on his chair with the cigarette resting on his fingers. Pauline looked back at him. "You can give it one more try darlin', it's free." he added and she sighed. "You know Ava said the same thing but used diferent words. Thank you." Pauline replied seeing a diferent point of view this time. "Just do me a favor, when things get though you both are always worth the fight because all you're doing right now is giving love a bad name and nobody wants that, okay?" Richie replied smiling as he put away the cigarette.
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Jesse was laying on the couch watching some show on Netflix or he was trying to pay attention to whatever they were saying. The fire was burning making it an amlost perfect autumn Friday night. "Jess, i think we should talk." she told him from right behind him. Jesse turned around and saw her holding a bottle of Hampton Water and two glasses. "Okay..." he said as he saw her making her way in front of him and sat beside him. Pauline plased the bottle of wine on the coffee table and opened it. She poured the wine in the glasses and gave one to Jesse. He took it in his hand and looked at her. She seemed so diferent now. He could feel her aura had changed. Maybe it was the way she was acting right now or maybe because that was what he wanted her to do.
"Cheers." she said and raised her glass and watched Jesse took his first sip. "You won't drink?" he asked her when he shallowed. "Not yet. First we need to talk." Pauline replied and placed gently her glass on the coffee table. She took the remote on her left hand and turned off the TV. While facing him she started "Lately i found myself looking at the mirror while i was puting some make up on and you know what i saw? I saw just a woman getting ready for work. I know i'm something more than that and believe you don't deserve a just a person. You're right i've changed and now all i'm asking is for us to sit down and find a way to fix whatever broke us, i won't run away or yell at you, i'm fucking tired of that." She spoke with so low voice that Jesse had trouble hearing some words. She was so calm and teh vibes she was sending were something he had never experience before in his entire life.
He placed the glass on the coffee table and was starring at her. "I'm tired too. You're right we need talk this through. You've been distant and it's been killing me. All i want is to be with you and the boys and enjoy what we've created which is something i can't even find the words to describe it." he spoke while locking his eyes with hers. Pauline looked down at her feet when he finished. "You're right. I was so obsessed with this job and i pushed everyone away." she started and lifted her face and kept starring straight to the turned off TV while a tear rolled down her cheek. "I thought that after the wedding eveything will be perfect and nothing can go wrong and then you told you lost your job and i felt so traped in a situation i didn't know how to get out. But now that changes and we are more stable in our jobs and we can look after each other. I just wish we had talk months ago before it destroyed us."
"It didn't destroy us, only us can do that. I mean we can speak the words but i will never really mean them. What my life could be with you, PJ and Kevin? Nothing!" he paused and looked at her. "I'm the only to blame for all of this! If didn't lose my job then i wouldn't have to drink so much. I will be able to be the husband you fucking deserve and not some really cheap version of it. But i was afraid, we had no money and i knew you will be disappointed in me and i will hate myself for that, not that i don't do that already." "What?" she paused him suddenly.
"I fucking hate myself right now, Paul! I hate the fact that we're having this conversation right now." he was looking at her speaking the only truth he had at the moment. "Jess..." she started covering his hands with hers. "I was told today that we are always worth the fight when things get tough. And with that in mind i decided to be in the office only for 4 hours per day. I know it's not a lot but it's a start to try to fix what needs to be fixed between us. You are really not the only one to blame, it's takes two to start a fire. I have responsibilities too that's why i'm taking the first step to break that circle. If you hate yourself then i do too because you're a part of me as i am a part of you, you told me that in Rome remember?" she paused as memories were flashing back in her mind.
Jesse chuckled also when his own memories of this special moment were running back to his mind. "Yeah, i was pretty wise back then." he said simply. "I really appreciate what you're doing and now that i'm not sick anymore i can do this..." he added seconds later and moved closer to her. He looked so deep in her eyes that he thought he was a part of them, in his mind he definitely was. He placed the sweetest kiss that was hiding on her lips while his palm was resting on her cheek. "We will be alright Pauline Timson i promise you that. You don't have to doubt about than anymore." Jesse spoke softly but in his head those words were screaming. He was never more serious in his whole life. He knew they're both acting wrong but all he cared about now was that they promised they will do better.
As they were kissing each other, they were thinking the very same thing; that the Sun will shine new tommorow morning when the Moon tells it that they are not broken anymore.
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